25 July 2011
That beautiful moment you have when you wake up in the morning and u get so excited about life, your dreams, then abrutly it just disappears because reality just sinked in, that you don't have money and pple think you do, haha funny ish! when you are literally left with your last R50 and you have to divide it inbetween. A percentage to buy food, a certain amount to stay with mom in case she needs it for something and the last bit for petrol so that I can pursue my dream of being on radio other things I dream of doing!
Gosh its so hard been doing this kinda of living for 2 years now, some days it gets easier than others. Some Jobs help me out like promo work which comes in great handy to pay rent. At times I don't make enough to make full payment for rent. Its hard living! Then friends wanna chill and party with you, YES I wanna hang out and enjoy the present called life, *snap* then u realise you can't because you don't have money for gas to travel instead you should rather save it for when you go do a show on radio. It hurts, I aint gona lie about it, I'm over the crying phase, it won't\doesn't help me.
Thru and thru it all I have managed to survive, and I can't express to you how but all I can say is; GOD works in ways you couldnt imagine! I can't tell you how close my mom, sister and I were on the verge of being kicked out our flat because at times we didn't have money to pay rent But again to this today I can say we still have shelter over our heads.
So you asking why am I sharing this publicly, well I just want you to realise that we all go thru bad times in life even thou people might think that I have a luxuary job and I dont mind sharing, not everything thou heheh. Everyday, every minute, every thought, I sit and think damn there's no way I'm going thru this for nothing! GOD pays double for your trouble, he has BIG plans for me, all this I go thru is for a reason &
I'm grateful for it, I have learnt sooo much and I'm stil learning! Shout Out to the people who make my life easy: Ave Sebz and Gladys!
24 July 2011
Every night before I go to sleep, I lay on my bed thinking, how great am I, that's I'm destined for great things, hahah its messing me up coz at times I'm so optermistic that I think: ha!! This world doesn't wanna give me a chance coz they fear my power and potential to blow up the world with my talent. They aint ready for me... Psssht!
Funny thing is that I'm coming hard and its not premature whether they or U are ready or not! Lawd have mercy on em when I really start living up to my name Miranda: A beautiful sat and worthy of admiration.
Start thinking highly of yourself! YES YOU!
Much love and honey Custard!!
